Slient prayer..just for you

| Sunday, July 12, 2009 |

yeah , ii'm back~
back positing yesterday.. today is a memory posting..
wad do ii mean by that? well.. ii though of something yesterdayy.. or someone yesterday..so here ii am posting..

ii hate the gushy feeling, the feeling that makes me thinks about you and drop my tears.. why should ii miss you now? its really felt stupid..ii'm the one who said ii'll put down, yet ii'm a failure in doing soo... sometimes in the night couldn't stand but missing you.. couldn't stand but think about you and our times.. yes ii ain't a good bf.. but ii though our times at ECP.. something happy .. perhaps its stupid.. and ii don't hope much.. just posting my feelings over here.. to make my mind clear.. that yes is just a memory.. 4 more days.. no ii did not forget.. 16th july 08... the day we first meet.. the time where we once started.. it'll just be a memory.. hahs...

sorry.. to someone..
ii know if you see this post you'll ask me wads happening.. or maybe not cause of your insensivness, but now.. ii just posting out my feelings.. about her..
its just some occasion missing of her.. ii guess..

ii guess time do change everything.. a few more months and maybe ii'll finally able to put this behind.. bear with me.. for this few months.. hopefully..sometimes ii wish you were change just like cindy said lz..

My slients prayers ♥ 10:02 AM

| Saturday, July 11, 2009 |

time to post something over here as promised to lan zhu!~

thanks for waiting so long at 768 for me kz? was surprised that you can wait so long .. and morever you are sick.. and yet you still wait thanks ^^..
when the right times comes , comes the right moment to let everyone know.. wait for another few more months everything will be over soon~ hahas.
lan zhu you this.. ACP :P

My slients prayers ♥ 9:15 AM

| Monday, July 6, 2009 |

hmm.. just wanted to make a few saying and dedications .

one thing is for those who couldn't find me. find me at my house phone.. something happened yesterday, no its not my mum confiscated my hp but something else.. ii told those who are my closed friends and those who ii need to contact so yeah.. thats one saying hahs..

thanks to Xiao gui (you know who you are) though that you didn't said much yesterday.. but asking me not to fred so much is good enough. thanks a lot for cheering my nights.. with laughters, and althought you are called xiao gui, promised me that you'll sleep early kz? 2 a.m 3 a.m lols.. don't sleep so late its bad for health =)

thanks to YJ (yong jian) for some comforts as well.. was scare when ii lost my entry proof but thanks for your re-assurance that ii could get back my stuff! nice working with you as per always

thanks to Alvin couinz hahas. thought you cant see my blog but yeah.. thanks for yesterday.. after wad happened, you talked to me which was really great and thanks for your treats! =)

3 people specially to thank them!...

and yet one thing to said..
where were you? as per always.. you are always sleeping.. ii know you are tired and stuff.. but can't ii have more attention? hah.. you were like.. someone.. ii guess..
and ii am like her that time needed someone late at night.. but yet you were sleeping.. ii guess ii couldn't blame you.. you are always tired.. hahs. maybe ii'm asking too much.. am ii asking too much?

hmms .. guess that is all. oh wait one more!

pineapple the nickname ii gave to Ong Poh Yi =x hahas. thanks for helping me informing the others couldn't have done it without you muhahahs =x
kz. tml meeting miss teh.
now doing homework~
bye guys~

My slients prayers ♥ 1:16 PM

| Wednesday, June 10, 2009 |

ii feel so frustrated!..
!!!!!!..
yet in the end.. ii got the blame..
ii can't blame my dad.. for he had good heart to buy me a cardboard
but hai.. end up ii still getting a talking from my mum : "you and your dad always do this"
why should ii be blamed? why should ii be said? shouldn't he take on the responsibility for giving us last minute ? all my fault.. all me to blame.. Dad blame me not clearing the cardboard and mum blame me cause my dad did last minute stuff..
parents? just push the fault to me..
infront of them... ii'm just a piece of junk.. a crap results bad. everything is bad..
but why can't they understand? freak the feelings when my mum said she want to volunteer me in when ii cannot past sec 4 to 5.. everyone thought my parents are good.. yet who know? all think ii'm exaggerating but yet who knows her true temper?
guess ii'm a bit down.. from everything.. even the latest tag.. sounds.. disturbing.
stressed, sad , and disappointed.. ii guess my days for this year sums up to this 3 things.. disappointed.. cause... she doesn't understand.( not her) but you know.. her? not my girlfriend, cause ii dun have one.
sad cause.. of my family..
stressed cause.. my results.
and yet.. whenever ii try pulling up..
ii get pull down..
ii get freaking pull down!!
when ii though hope was near..
everything when back to the waters.
wad was there?
wad ii needed..
isn't there at all..
well..this just sums up today. or everyday..
happy unhappy?
well.. nothing seems to be happy expect for sometimes..
now..
nothing~..
tata guys.
see you guys when ii feel like it again..
complicated.

My slients prayers ♥ 8:07 PM

| Tuesday, May 19, 2009 |

haha... ii'm back posting =) for this blog.. =x actually got another private blog.. which didn't really update much also.. haha.. oh wells, today ii'm here to post some pictures over the few days. x=
cause this few days... when to east coast park on sunday and monday when to t-juntion..
sorry didn't take any pictures of t-juntion but is sure fun there!
HAHA. =x

kkz.

enjoy!
this is all the beach photos XD

wil said more later tata ~

My slients prayers ♥ 8:13 AM

| Tuesday, April 14, 2009 |

its been practically a month since ii last blog , today decided this will be my official last blogging and this blog will leave as wad is it now stagnant and broken. cause in the end nothing changes much =)
well.. let me see wad ii can put here..
will just put a poem. --" which thanks to Cindy~ she make it so difficult to comprehend. --"

so heres goes.
slient prayers

I prayed to the silent prayers,
Daily,nightly,from dawn to dusk.
I request a healthy soul,
for I know the excellence you strive.
I see your eyes piercing through my courage,
Only that suppose me to make my confession.
My silent prayers,of all the love.

hmms. enjoy this poem =)

now.. shall go back to my stuff! =)

bye and good luck with you guys =)

tata~

My slients prayers ♥ 3:20 PM

| Friday, March 6, 2009 |

today..ii came back posting.. seems.. like today is E learning day.. and problem is.. you can't even download the homework for some of us? maybe due to so techical problems ii guess..

was feeling real bad yesterday.. especially at night.. ii was all ok in the afternoon.. when mum was ook and stuff.. we eat steamboat.. so darn happy la..but when the aircon problem came.. she was there nagging.. NON stop.. even without my fault ii also get blame.. ii'm tired. seriously tired that night...talk to dad that day also.. well.. ii don't said she change or wad...just that she back to her old self bahs.. at least wendy is with her.. so.. no it to worry so much .. yesterday talk some craps to her.. she having so much problem now...hope she alright..

ii'm just particulary sad that night..
perhaps its just something ii realized that ii cannot said?
but yet simple things like that.. can't you understand?
perhaps not.. who am ii to you anyways?
a friend? or more..
that night just after that last message.. ii don't feel like replying back.
cause you make me feel you're being irritated.
yeah so.. might as well stop replying you.
when back to sleep.

last night..
i dreamt of someone real special..
someone.. that.. ii won't see now.
why am ii lying to myself.
that prehaps you still love me? ii dunno ..ii dunno if you do love me. haiz.
you was actually dreaming about someone else..
why is it no surprised?

My slients prayers ♥ 9:00 AM