dreams are never ending

2009-12-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

wad can ii do?

to help her... the her who needed money..

haiz.

Kinda abit emo LOL.

post later hahas

2009-12-23T21:24:00.005+08:00

this is officially, my 90 post Lols.

which is kinda like.. dead by now?

ii wonder to myself.. could ii be there for anyone?

ii guess no matter how much ii tried.. ii only fullfilled one person..

well its sze ling? hmms..

ahhh but well.. its just suddenly pop out of my mind..

ii getting my next paid.. so ii also heck care.. giving it to Sl since she needed the money..

Hope she didn't see this blog so can ii think of ways to slip that money into her.

hehs.

well... nothing to post..

tomorrow mahjong~ wee. xD

hmms...

then again lets.. see wad to post..

ii guess.. ii have been really bad this year?

but ah well.. next year is sec 5..

1 thing, ii won't get to see lower sec for sure ! and thats because benson ain't around :X

get to play another year of chess(chess YES!) =x

ii love chess hehs xD

2... shuts.. where did ii put that lib book ii owe the school darn =x

need to find and return..

ah well..

fried rice... vista kitchen fried rice.

hahs..

ii guess ii have nothing to said again..

it'll be fun working at the workshop..

where ii'll be K by MR soh again.

--"

now for a little wish.

which is gonna be really small :x

God, ii wish her results be good.. as a friend.. ii concern her a lot and ii hope she'll pass:)

Shes been through a lot.. but ii know you are there for her always..

her family wise problem yes.. hahas. xD

and tada ii wont said wad ii have posted.. but ah well its has nothing to do with you guys :X

Soneeft: hehs. after wad you have done. ii seriously dunno wad to said or do lors.. other then run away from you --" and IMHO, you kinda backstabbed benson also eh? so yeah ii'm kinda predjuced over you :x

2009-12-05T08:16:00.005+08:00

back again.. this time from camp... will be going another one pretty soon.

firstly thanks Chan for the msg.. for to me..idk wad to reply you.

perhaps in some sense.. ii can't said you understand me..

but thens again.

you probably wont .

the camp was awesome..

especially during the 2nd night.. where ii had a big cry out again..

thanks to marcus one of the facilators who talked to me..

indeed God has never forsaken us:)

ii once thought tat God has never been there.

it was quite a few periods of months...

now ii realised how God has been so real in our lifes..

ii guess all this is wad ii meaning to.. hehs.

well guess thats all

perhaps ii still love you.. but yet the seldom contacting make me.. feel sad.

but yet ii know that.. no matter how much my love for you is..

you'll never notice that..

hehs. perhaps.. my heart will never stop giving up beating faster while seeing you.

2009-11-29T08:32:00.002+08:00

feeling so fuck up now.

ii envy the tv kids..

cause the parents understands them..

ii envy my friends parents..

cause although they didn't bring them to anywhere they are happy.

their parents will still support them, look at mind then.. always think ii'm rebelling

but yet she treat my friends like shit.. and ask endless sensitive question.. friends who know her all run because of her nagginess.

ii have my life but yet got destroyed.

everything is you correct, let you win lors.

ii no longer care wad you said anyways..

cause to me you this mother is a FAILURE!.

everyone though you so and so good.

but who really.. likes your FUCKING ATTITUDE.

you go ask all my friends who know you.

seriously, like kenen and ZT.

dunno how to stop.

see you once never one to see you twice.

my results failed

sent me to boyshome?idc

sent me to NS? idc.

ii heck care with everything you have said this days.

and ii rather be out most of the time then staying at home.

nehs you won't see this blog at all.

cause you dun even know ii keep a blog at all.

and yet so this is it.

you DUNO ANYTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL.

cousin envious me,

friends jealous about me.

but in the end.. my mum is just a mum you won't like to stay at life at all.

all she thinks.. is how to shoot people.

no supporting from her at all.

idc.

ihc.

just like you said.

he won't listen want la.

yes, ii won't listen anymore.

if one day ii earn money.

dun expect me to give anymore money to you.

ii once told everyone you are a good mum.

so ii guess ii better change my word about it.

ii'm thinking when ii come back..
see Aunty christine again.

anger, tears.. for my mum.

no longer seems the right stuff for her.

talks? quarreling?

ii guess those 2 words will never come up again.

2009-11-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

hahah... back posting.. but still LAZINESS KILLS :P

shall not said much today...

wanna kill henry now only xD LOL.

Hmms just wanted to said something for someone today..

@wendy:

hehs.. ii guess.. to said the true.. ii never really treated you well ii guess.. although we are called gans but ii never really treated you well... regretted hahs.. but well.. one part of time ii really didn't acknowledge you as my gans because of wad you have done to us.. pungseh us --"

but well.. when that time Kk they all said they wanna settle your stuff.. ii said that own matter own settle.

oh wendy, 4 years ii have known you.. cant said you grow up.. but well you are slowly becoming one who is growing up..? ii hope next time kk they all won't really have to settle your matters.. to me you are no longer small xD(in age wise) in height wise -ahems- x= but well.. ii guess my point is that ii will treat you well ii guess.. hahs :)

thats all guys, working tomorrow.

oh and yeah.. II LAZY RELINK!~

nights~

2009-11-21T10:41:00.003+08:00

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

guess this is wad ii feeling now..
talked to her.. and ii guess.. promises are so easy to break this days.

"needed someone to be here, to have you .. to listen to my crazy and confused thoughts but where are you? where are you when ii most needed you now.. my love."

2009-11-19T11:56:00.002+08:00

after this post it's gonna be my 85Th post.. guess ii did post that much.. today slacking at home.. after having wild day yesterday, can't believe ii spend 10 bucks.. to play that game.. but it was worth it.. everything was worth:)

today after talking to rady O:

she keep on saying want to go back to school.. Oo.

then later saying holiday.. Hmms..

which make me think..

if lets said one day.. ii am really working.. could ii fulfilled my dreams? ii have a lot of dreams and one of it is to backpack ii guess.. to somewhere like japan or australia.. and had fun.. to me backpacking is much more fun! don't you agree?:) at least you won't be so pack and you would not need to rush.. ii guess if ii would really wanna go backpacking to australia ii would choose the country side.

No matter how much.. of city guy ii am.

ii guess ii like country side..

peaceful and quiet...

Hmmms...well thats a dream:)

well well wads next?

UBINNNNNNNNNNN!!!!~~~~~

LOL. yeahs ubin ii guess.. ii wanna go next week!

anyone interested?(apply first) :p

but ii guess ii won't bring anyone to go..

afterall.. the last time who ii go with.. was Her.

:')shuts.. hehs.

today super random xD

and next next is.. JOB!~ woo..

ii talk to uncle Oliver for Job counselling once..

and he ever did told me.. about wad should ii do..

not told ii guess.. but he ask questions which make me understand..

ii guess ii can said my self interacting with people easily?

perhaps not to? hehs..

but yet.. talking to people.. and showing people around.. is somewhat ii like...

and not like staying in the sun..

cause ii was having a headache over which course to choose if ii got to ite...

and its like petrolchemicals or.. well.. some other courses..

but ii guess tourism or hotel is where ii wanna go?

ii guess so.. Hmms.. dunno hahas..

well..

guess wont update. for today.

tomorrow working!

PREGO~ weee.. love that place.

"when love doesn't come, it time to learn how to let go" -Ramsey

own quote xD

2009-11-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

ii guess today mood was good afterall.. Hmms.

today had fun with Vanessa ... watch the movies and stuff.. quite fun especially the part where we go take up the toy... you know the machine that wins toys? we spend quite a lot of there.. in the end she win a elmo back home =) hahas. thanks to the people over there as well. and here ii am blogging, guess today its quite a short post.. didn't want to explain the outing in details..

the sad part is.. well about last night ii guess.
ii guess this time she did it(someone)..
somehow or rather.. my heart is not reacting to her sorries anymore?
everytime she said sorry.. ii'll forgive her..
but this na-ah.. not so fast..
ii just want to be left alone from her.
and this post.. is just to tell her we need time alone.
perhaps it be better this way.
No matter how many sorries you said..
you can't change the fact that.. everytime.. you in bad mood.. you give me those kind of messages.
then.. wad would ii feel?
ii guess ii shall not elaborate that part thens.
tired today.. after going ot with vanessa.. =/

2009-10-27T11:14:00.002+08:00

ii guess ii'm back here posting?.. oh well oh well..
even though ii'm not working.. but ii sort of book myself into volunteer work, which ii promised myself that ii'll do it.. so volunteer myself.. into it, hope to get reply soon hehs.
thans.. yeahs lors.. ii think so.. buddhist is a religion ii respect but don't believe.. love helping out there. and decided to help them on some days.. which ii promised.. probably will bring a book and just well read..catch up the times ii wanna read.

probably starting work next week.. and going for another tml.
Hmms. wad else.?

ah well. post later. hahas.

2009-10-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

weee.. ii'm back from M'sia trip from my cousins wedding.. i didn't know my uncle was doing into petrol chemicals industry. but ah well.. ii wonder now.. if ii really go into petrol chemicals.. maybe that place, its a oppurnity where ii can work at hah.. maybe.. bah maybe.. hehs.. but ah well.. m'sia is a new place for me.. ii guess i could said one of the cousin promised me that he wil teach me driving once ii go there again.. and ii sort of wanna have a car over there.. it'll be great at there.. staying there hahas...

now she understands me.. ii wonder how long?.. hahs..

2009-10-22T21:51:00.003+08:00

yea！ii'm back postinng ... hahas.. ii saw all my cousin and uncle.. they are so nice.. its makes me wanna come back at the end of the year... well.. ii'll come back and ii promised it..
Tomorrow is my cousin wedding and ii gonna attend it.. weee....

终于我们的事情已经终结了，我爱你，你这个傻傻得猪 ╭︿︿︿╮
{/ o o /}
( (oo) )
︶︶︶

2009-10-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

well.... Hi guys today at M'sia.. at my relatives house wee... is so... great being at their house... will post most if have time hahas...

2009-10-14T11:31:00.002+08:00

hahas... back posting now.. well.. after a big fight yesterday didn't wanna to stay at home to see my parents, cause ii'll never get their support from them.. hai.

but oh well ii get to know a lot of stuff..

found a job,
learn how to play pool..
all yesterdays..
and tomorrow is work trainning..
ii also found out that.. its was a mistake a misunderstanding that makes us break..
its was his brother who did it . hehs.. which is .. zz..
but ah well..ii duno.. dun think we are suited.. sometimes you cant understand wad ii felt or really gone through with my family.. everyone has different family problem .. but in the end.. ii needed someone to listen to me when iimost needed there.. ii guess its my fault cause.. my mind was to complicated.. hehs..
and yours.. ii'm yours first.. but hahs..

yesterday was at PS(plaza sing) wahhh.. so fun.. me and chamaine play pool over there hahas... quite fun actually and also quite cheap.. than when play dx3, love them xD .. sort of created a new card AGAIN Lols.. ii think ii'm going mad with so much cars.. craze.. xD

well... thats marks my days..
tomorrow is anther days.. going to trainning at 5 p.m.
so wont be online..
see ya again guys~

2009-09-06T09:07:00.003+08:00

This wil probably be my last last blog post before ii gone for my national exams and get starts to tackle all my subject everyday without reachin home early. which ii don't even like it.

today super happy, and IDK why =) so don't ask me kz? =x

well so long never blog and yet nothing really will change ^^
ii'm soo going back to church! soon XD after my N level. ii'll really want to go back there and start back again.. been backslided for so long well its time ^^
ii still believe in him, the God ii know, even going to temple won't change my mind about beening a christian.
oh. time to reflect =x xiaoqi.. Hmms.. maybe ii am that, but than of course ii am who ii am right ? =x perharps thats was a thing that ii got inherited by both of my parents, seeing parents quarrel every time from primary school till now make me realised wad is money importance, nothing beats money not even kinship.
is that wad is it? money and kinship is just like 2 side of coin. though i totally different.
but sometimes people are selfish to scarifice kinship for money.
will ii be into that stage? maybe.
ii was called xiaoqi this morning because of small matters ii flare up.. maybe bahs.
but yet ii tried my best. seriously, or maybe ii didn't .. but ii think both of my friends will agree on wad ii sai yesterday when ii talk to them. ii'm not beeing at fault. or maybe ii am? hehs.
ii dun really carez XD
its over. and ii'm not crying ^^
ii only cried for a few person, sad that you aren't that "few"
=)
hehs.

after this N level, well... lets see.
working ? and ii promised uncle oliver to help!
=)

hmms.. anymore?
oh oh yeah. replying a tag by Wendy.
hopefully she'll get to see.
Nopes ii won't do that, because the chances of us meetin next time is slim ^^
erms thans.. right.. is not that ii don't want talk to you, but thans.. ii'm waiting for kk their decisions, so as long as they accept well. slowly bahs kz? hahas.
now ii just treat you as .. like.. a well. non-friend.
seeing that your BF as per always the gl looks.
hehs. ii also dun care.
wait till Kok Keong and jas jie they all accept you back bahs.
ii be waiting ^^

2009-08-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

ii was so happy today.. but end up so freaking no mood.

No mood to talk
No mood to think
No mood , everything feels dumb.
Dumb because you don't understand.
Dumb because ii feel stupid.

No you would never understand.
Stupid that ii think you would.
How ii wished someone would understand my heart.

ii wished..

2009-08-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

today decided to post something .. a song..
ii guess this song some sort of talks about me in the past..
a person whoes been waiting.. waiting for the same kind of love everytime..

that day .. ii finally realized why you were in the hospital.. its was the past, ii guess.
ii could never be able to brought it back..
hahs.. well.. its no long gonna be the same again..?
well.. hehs..

so shall post this song.. today.

lyrics

当你边飞边流下泪滴
我不认为谁变了心
你不过是累了去旅行
而我是家永远会等你

听说你的爱碰上雨季

又湿了又冷生了一场病

心疼的我想给你暖意

倔强的你不让我走近

月光在你眼里

你说你没资格让我呵护疼惜

就算我真能抛弃一切

你又怎么去战胜自己

不顾一切的爱才算是爱

从来没有感慨一路走来

不记得悲哀只记得愉快

总想为你实现你的期待

不顾一切的爱无可取代

所受的伤害都像是告白

我不走开等你随时再回来
shall type in chinese.. hahas..
为什么我要有人在我身边时，一个都找不到？
为什么要找一个能了解你的人又那么难吗？
为何你不懂我的心？
好像有你在我身边。。。
好像在爱你一次。。
你是懂我的人。。
hahs..
ii just hope she was there again...
she always know how to cheer me up..
thanks.^^

2009-08-02T11:52:00.002+08:00

oh yeahs.. back today posting hmms.. so lets see wad to post about yesterday..

when to tuition thans.. back home rest than got to my mum friend Birthday party aunty pauline?
drink quite little there hahs.. and even talk to the kor kor over theres.. Hehs.. can't believe it la..
Aunty pauline sons actually.. smoke at like wad 11? 9 years sia.. =x.. well well.. ii still love to drink Hehs. XD

when online saw XG.
oh well so long never call her that..
get back your hp soon..
really would like to talk to you again..
XDDD..

imy.

Story of the day? : Swing me higher.

2009-08-02T11:35:00.002+08:00

Higher please Higher.. ii want to feel the wind! : said little girl
the boy was pushing her higher and higher..
ii want it be higher ! ii want to reach for the skies! they were both young and knew nothing so innocent that they thought they could touch the skies using the swing.
Mum: Time to go home kids time for dinner.
Little girl : "agggg.. MUM ii want just awhile more.. please? one last swing before ii go home"
Mum: "no"
the little girl when home crying.. wishing she were played the slide again.. and the boy was being fetch home as well.

they were the best of friends, shared everything and said everything.. growed up together.. same primary school even they were the best of best friends. they even aim for the same secondary school together.. but end up they had to part because the boys parents are migrating.
the day before the boy go, He gave her a letter to tell him of his promised, he promised he'll be there for her. whenever she needed him from then on they contacted through emails msn and sometimes through long distance phone call. they guy was always there to be with her..

one day, the boy got back to Singapore to attend... a wedding..
the little girl now is no longer little.. but a pretty woman.. who is getting married to a guy who she really love..
and many years past again..

and this time the guy came back again.. with his grandchild.. to attend his best friend funeral.
the girls funeral. A journal was given to him. from the girl children.
the boy cried.. badly after looking at the journal contents.

wad was inside the contents mostly contains this.
"if only ii know his feelings about him, if only he knew ii love him"

don't let chances slip.

2 less lonely people in the world

2009-08-01T15:13:00.003+08:00

nice song... hahas recomendations~

2009-07-28T19:57:00.003+08:00

"i will be fine , will be fine, it's just some small operations : said Ramsey
He was push him to the operation threatre for an operation for an major operation an operation on the brain.

He was at the operation table light shinning on him a mask was put on him and he was put to sleep.
and there he was dreaming .. but yet he wasn't dreaming about will his operation will be fine, he was dreaming about her words.. his dream was so real, he was going back to the past thinking .. wad could he have been done to salvage that relationship. till now he admit.. he still love her , he still misses her.. yet everything is so late. but everything is still so clear to him ..

the times they spent together.. the things they do.. althought its short but yet its all worth it..

he will never forget her.. never will..

the operation was done.. but wad was .. said.. its seem like drama to their ears.. "we have done our best" he died.. and he never will be alive.

hehs. maybe this isn't too realistic will try to post something else next time.. today Hahs bad.

2009-07-26T02:05:00.000+08:00

sleepless cause ii miss you.. sleepless cause ii am worried about you.. worry cause ii'm afraid ii cannot be with you when you needed me again.. so scare so afraid .. just tonight ii'm tonning.. just tonight.. and only tonight...

so... wads about today?

2009-07-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

decided to post here.. bascially.. my blog is getting a year soon.. in a months time.. happened to look into my blog.. post.. and saw a lot of stuff... this blog was dedicated to her.. hahs.. guess its was foolish to do so.. and yet 1 year from now.. ii still un able to help her.. wad a failure.. uhs? indeed .. towards her.. the gulitness never fails.. but yet wad am ii now? she.. always thinks.. so.. ii can't said anything.. hehs.. but oh well.. today sums up everything is bad..got lecture by the security guard today.. after someone forget to bring their pass.. ii actually do no blame them.. so.. ii let the security guard lecture me instead.. decided not to said anything.. and let it be... didn't talk to that person thou.. so.. yeahs.. just let her straight up.. when back home.. got another scolding session from mum.. freak.. really sad..but well..

ii'm sorry ii guess? whenever you needed a friend ii'm aint there.. but yet.. you always find me at a wrong time.. ? or is it... cause that night ii was especially tired.. maybe its all me.. all the fault remains in me.. and its it me.. but yet perhaps.. just like wad ii said in the conversation this afternoon.. hehs.. you don't even need me..

wish ii had a stick with me now.. one take in.. makes me fly.

2009-07-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

if you see my blog.. you'll notice that my blog has no song nows.. that because ii decided to put every post with a song.. a song.. to make you how ii feel today ii guess? well.. today thinking a lot .. hahs.. but oh well.. its nothing anyways.. but decide to put this song.. which ii really like .. hahas.

2009-07-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

ok this'll be very short...
dam short that ..
it will only contain less than 7 letters per sentence or NOT?
today is basically sums up to one thing..
BORING~
other than mr ho suaning and mr eng "encouragements"
basically is fine~
so one last sentence?
CHEER UP~ BRITNEY~
oh well.
thats all?
guess so.
its 9 time to work~

2009-07-12T10:02:00.008+08:00

yeah , ii'm back~
back positing yesterday.. today is a memory posting..
wad do ii mean by that? well.. ii though of something yesterdayy.. or someone yesterday..so here ii am posting..

ii hate the gushy feeling, the feeling that makes me thinks about you and drop my tears.. why should ii miss you now? its really felt stupid..ii'm the one who said ii'll put down, yet ii'm a failure in doing soo... sometimes in the night couldn't stand but missing you.. couldn't stand but think about you and our times.. yes ii ain't a good bf.. but ii though our times at ECP.. something happy .. perhaps its stupid.. and ii don't hope much.. just posting my feelings over here.. to make my mind clear.. that yes is just a memory.. 4 more days.. no ii did not forget.. 16th july 08... the day we first meet.. the time where we once started.. it'll just be a memory.. hahs...

sorry.. to someone..
ii know if you see this post you'll ask me wads happening.. or maybe not cause of your insensivness, but now.. ii just posting out my feelings.. about her..
its just some occasion missing of her.. ii guess..

ii guess time do change everything.. a few more months and maybe ii'll finally able to put this behind.. bear with me.. for this few months.. hopefully..sometimes ii wish you were change just like cindy said lz..

2009-07-11T09:15:00.003+08:00

time to post something over here as promised to lan zhu!~

thanks for waiting so long at 768 for me kz? was surprised that you can wait so long .. and morever you are sick.. and yet you still wait thanks ^^..
when the right times comes , comes the right moment to let everyone know.. wait for another few more months everything will be over soon~ hahas.
lan zhu you this.. ACP :P

2009-07-06T13:16:00.003+08:00

hmm.. just wanted to make a few saying and dedications .

one thing is for those who couldn't find me. find me at my house phone.. something happened yesterday, no its not my mum confiscated my hp but something else.. ii told those who are my closed friends and those who ii need to contact so yeah.. thats one saying hahs..

thanks to Xiao gui (you know who you are) though that you didn't said much yesterday.. but asking me not to fred so much is good enough. thanks a lot for cheering my nights.. with laughters, and althought you are called xiao gui, promised me that you'll sleep early kz? 2 a.m 3 a.m lols.. don't sleep so late its bad for health =)

thanks to YJ (yong jian) for some comforts as well.. was scare when ii lost my entry proof but thanks for your re-assurance that ii could get back my stuff! nice working with you as per always

thanks to Alvin couinz hahas. thought you cant see my blog but yeah.. thanks for yesterday.. after wad happened, you talked to me which was really great and thanks for your treats! =)

3 people specially to thank them!...

and yet one thing to said..
where were you? as per always.. you are always sleeping.. ii know you are tired and stuff.. but can't ii have more attention? hah.. you were like.. someone.. ii guess..
and ii am like her that time needed someone late at night.. but yet you were sleeping.. ii guess ii couldn't blame you.. you are always tired.. hahs. maybe ii'm asking too much.. am ii asking too much?

hmms .. guess that is all. oh wait one more!

pineapple the nickname ii gave to Ong Poh Yi =x hahas. thanks for helping me informing the others couldn't have done it without you muhahahs =x
kz. tml meeting miss teh.
now doing homework~
bye guys~

2009-06-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

ii feel so frustrated!..
!!!!!!..
yet in the end.. ii got the blame..
ii can't blame my dad.. for he had good heart to buy me a cardboard
but hai.. end up ii still getting a talking from my mum : "you and your dad always do this"
why should ii be blamed? why should ii be said? shouldn't he take on the responsibility for giving us last minute ? all my fault.. all me to blame.. Dad blame me not clearing the cardboard and mum blame me cause my dad did last minute stuff..
parents? just push the fault to me..
infront of them... ii'm just a piece of junk.. a crap results bad. everything is bad..
but why can't they understand? freak the feelings when my mum said she want to volunteer me in when ii cannot past sec 4 to 5.. everyone thought my parents are good.. yet who know? all think ii'm exaggerating but yet who knows her true temper?
guess ii'm a bit down.. from everything.. even the latest tag.. sounds.. disturbing.
stressed, sad , and disappointed.. ii guess my days for this year sums up to this 3 things.. disappointed.. cause... she doesn't understand.( not her) but you know.. her? not my girlfriend, cause ii dun have one.
sad cause.. of my family..
stressed cause.. my results.
and yet.. whenever ii try pulling up..
ii get pull down..
ii get freaking pull down!!
when ii though hope was near..
everything when back to the waters.
wad was there?
wad ii needed..
isn't there at all..
well..this just sums up today. or everyday..
happy unhappy?
well.. nothing seems to be happy expect for sometimes..
now..
nothing~..
tata guys.
see you guys when ii feel like it again..
complicated.

2009-05-19T08:13:00.004+08:00

haha... ii'm back posting =) for this blog.. =x actually got another private blog.. which didn't really update much also.. haha.. oh wells, today ii'm here to post some pictures over the few days. x=
cause this few days... when to east coast park on sunday and monday when to t-juntion..
sorry didn't take any pictures of t-juntion but is sure fun there!
HAHA. =x

kkz.

enjoy!
this is all the beach photos XD

wil said more later tata ~

2009-04-14T15:20:00.002+08:00

its been practically a month since ii last blog , today decided this will be my official last blogging and this blog will leave as wad is it now stagnant and broken. cause in the end nothing changes much =)
well.. let me see wad ii can put here..
will just put a poem. --" which thanks to Cindy~ she make it so difficult to comprehend. --"

so heres goes.
slient prayers

I prayed to the silent prayers,
Daily,nightly,from dawn to dusk.
I request a healthy soul,
for I know the excellence you strive.
I see your eyes piercing through my courage,
Only that suppose me to make my confession.
My silent prayers,of all the love.

hmms. enjoy this poem =)

now.. shall go back to my stuff! =)

bye and good luck with you guys =)

tata~

2009-03-06T09:00:00.007+08:00

today..ii came back posting.. seems.. like today is E learning day.. and problem is.. you can't even download the homework for some of us? maybe due to so techical problems ii guess..

was feeling real bad yesterday.. especially at night.. ii was all ok in the afternoon.. when mum was ook and stuff.. we eat steamboat.. so darn happy la..but when the aircon problem came.. she was there nagging.. NON stop.. even without my fault ii also get blame.. ii'm tired. seriously tired that night...talk to dad that day also.. well.. ii don't said she change or wad...just that she back to her old self bahs.. at least wendy is with her.. so.. no it to worry so much .. yesterday talk some craps to her.. she having so much problem now...hope she alright..

ii'm just particulary sad that night..
perhaps its just something ii realized that ii cannot said?
but yet simple things like that.. can't you understand?
perhaps not.. who am ii to you anyways?
a friend? or more..
that night just after that last message.. ii don't feel like replying back.
cause you make me feel you're being irritated.
yeah so.. might as well stop replying you.
when back to sleep.

last night..
i dreamt of someone real special..
someone.. that.. ii won't see now.
why am ii lying to myself.
that prehaps you still love me? ii dunno ..ii dunno if you do love me. haiz.
you was actually dreaming about someone else..
why is it no surprised?

2009-02-27T22:54:00.001+08:00

Ok...today not in a good mood.. so shall post abit here. :P

feel frustrated for sze ling.. zz.. never seen such a guy before. STUPID =x
well.. hope she settles her matter. =) good luck girl :D

then.. ya.. don't really know wad to post expect today we are beginning to plan our amazing race..
and now.. ii going to start leading BS soon.. will pray more about it. =)
but dunno why ii'm in a bad mood.. well. heh..
post another time.

2009-02-17T19:10:00.002+08:00

Today.. oh well since ii'm in a good mood shall post some stuff..
it's been long since ii post and yeah don't want to said about anything.. for that few weeks...
Been rough... Cause of someone.. yet that person will never understand ^^

so yeah.. happy today cause.. DUnno? lols.
just got back from school..
brought dads top up for her.. ^^
told her will sponsor $20 and ii did =)
well.. ii wish to keep her promises ii guess..
afterall she my most loveable dad except for some few things *cough*
oh well.. she helped me a lot thanks dad..
now its time for me to help you if ii can ii guess =x
today waited dad to end school.. 4.30 plus ii think..
then accompany wendy and her to vista to buy her prepaid and buy wendy stuff for billy..
after Wendy go off.. when to take the bus with dad.. she realized her card was lost..
so... had to go find with her..
ii spammed di's hp =x
lols.. when to school then... yah... she found her card.. someone gave it to her..
was funny LOL.
ii guess ii shall post this much =x
nothing to post anyways =x

oh and you can notice ii change to slient prayers XD
hmms.. someone know whats the reason =x
kkz..

as ii pray for your health..
may you be healthy...
you're one important person in my life..
cause without your advice.. ii won't be off me today..
ii might be just still thinking about the same girl..
yet thanks.. for everything you have done being there whenever ii need you as a friend.
hope you keep my words in mind..
Don't play with fire.

2009-02-01T11:14:00.003+08:00

hmms...ii think ii am getting more and more crazy...more and more.. un-sleepness nights lols..
yesterday ii broke my latest record sleep at like wad 4.50a.m ok.. LOL.. pro right? haha.. my dad come back still can ask me.. you no it sleep the uh..

but oh well.. imma crazy now...
ii promised that this will be a short post
cause. tiredness and upsetness is the only words that are in my mind..
disappoiment is the only word ii could said...
ii rather diseappear then seeing this stuff..
I'm tired..for once.. and all..
seriously don't want to bother.
wendy?
lols. thanks kok keong for siding me ><
well..they think billy is the wrong.
ii have nothing to said..
well...
my house visitation has been changed to next week.. for visit's =D
so free one come ok? haha will got angbaos one =)
XD

wearing a mask..is better
never show anything or everything..
to the world is just another cruelty
that nothing last.
nothing will...

OK. going to focus now!
focusing on my path to going to become a missionaries XD
haha... =)

2009-01-27T17:14:00.002+08:00

ii'm back posting cause ii'm at home today..

This morning daniel said want to come but in the end can't sad :(
but anyways.. a bit sad la...
no it's not about Daniel..
not it's not about chan..
not anyone but myself..
ii'm frustrated..angry with myself..
cause no one listen to me..
giving so much advice..
who want to listen?
just wasting my breathe talking to chan and dad..
dad.. is just changing cause of stanx.
and dunno wad to said la...

ii?... ii just want to have a shelter..
a shelter which ii can't have..
yesterday till today... my mood has never been good.
perhaps it's time ii shall keep quiet..
maybe hoping a lot of stuff...
isn't is a good thing..
well...
at least she is happy..
when ii want to find her..
sometimes she put me on waiting then put me down..
ii know your gans are important..
but how about me?
aren't ii important also?
nvm bahs..
ii be in bad mood also no use..
smile ii shall smile.. :)
since being happy or sad ii still need to survived the day
might as well smile with laughter. :)
kz.. done blogging.

2009-01-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

Lols... ii still can blog today :D
but today...ii'm not really in the mood today.. after yesterday..
should ii be happy or sad?
afterall dad said people only learn to treasure when the thing is gone..
ii know she didn't ask for any chance...
but ya.. sort of confused..
ii admit sometimes ii do miss her.. there is no doubt about it D:

but ...ii guess those misses is just misses as friends :D
or perhaps not hmms..

oh well..don't want to think about it.. :D
for now ii just want to be faithful :D
to my little girl.. who ii love dearly.. and holds important to me =)
my little girl ,
ii love you =)
haha.. that was random XD
eee... ii'm not in my cousin house..
with all my cousin around.
at least there is some mature cousin..
and some that aren't..
like that one trying to strangle me now =x
but ya la... he's just funny and loveable ok xD
haha..
soo.. yups..
will post another time.
before my cousin see everything :D
-cousin leroy , you didn't see all of it yet=)
oh well..
shall post my day another time. XD
seeya
with love..nothing is impossible :D

2009-01-25T16:15:00.002+08:00

ii'll never said anything to them again..
both of them.. ii totally lose hope after today..
perhaps new year is where ii can really.. change..
dad.. is your own choice now.. asking you to be cheerful.. is just an advice.
asking you to go on is just to ask you not to think too much
asking you not to eat those things.. cause it will harm your future.
if you still want.. ii'm not gonna to stop you.
just like you said.. you're stubborn.
what am ii to stop you?

chan...
the promised you make to me was social..
but to me those cigarettes was never consider social..
cause ii just want you to have a clear break from cigarettes.
yet you can't .. so. ii can't said anything
ii do care.. but ii guess.. ii shall be cold again..
at least being cold might be better for me and you .. for us..
cause you miss..everything..for me to even understand.
perhaps dad saying was right..
don't you have feelings for her even after you break with her...
yes ii do.. but that was a month back.. exactly...seeing her blog that time...
and talking to her..that time.. totally broke my heart to her.
totally lose everything to her.
today ii mark this as a ending..
thought that ii never regret knowing you..
you are just a memory..that going to be cold and hard.
ii would never forgive you. understand now.
after just now.
you can never turn back.

ii feel better after ranting everything out

2009-01-25T08:52:00.003+08:00

You broken it chan
thought you only smoke with your uncle..
but ii do remember you promised you smoke for leisure..
and yet to me.. when you're buying a cigarettes.. and smoking..no longer tell me its for leisure..
forgive me for forgetting that ii wrote the wrong reason or something..
my brain ain't working well today.
so you broke it.
and that does it.

lols... it's been a few days.. ii been blog... cause been through some rough stuff..
thanks Wendy mei.. and SL for sort of talking to me..when they're busy uhs =D
at least we gone through that..
ii'm happy.. and ii miss you.. my little girl.. =(
won't be seeing you offend.. cause you're busy..
well...ii better get busy with my studies as well.. since ii'm starting my N level this year.
erm.. ya. haha. =)

ok.. so wad ii did yesterday..
yesterday was tiring.. ii reach home like 2 a.m + cause when quite a lot of place and was it was coming to chinese new year..
parents doing stocks intake -__-"
a few dates to remember and note off.
Sat ii might have a steamboat outing with my BS group at Uncle Oliver house
Sunday might go SX house.. going alone very sian leis. =x
trying to contact SL see whether ii can go her house or not..
it's in jurong.. ask my cousin tag maybe :D.. better not. later ii got caught in middle sian diaox. =x
sort of promised SL a present.. well. shadn't post on here.. if not she see also not good uhs :D
kkz.. so lets continue yesterday..
morning was bascially slacking.. nothing to do..
afternoon ii was out with my parents.. my mum wanted to eat Mac.. but when gone to 888 Macs was close down -__-" which ii totally forgot la.. walaus haha..
saw SQ on the way to someone house.. leg hurt liaos still go lols.
dad fetch mum back to work..
then we got home and pack..
dad promised me a room :D yeah finally XD
ii just want a normal room. to sleep.. and chat on msn with haha
so meet with my mum at 5 to eat..
when to kallang to reutrn stuff to Cindy Shi jie from my dad fo tang.. was returning stuff like erm... the winter coats from the japan trip..
when to eat... at the nearby food court... Called her.. tell her ii miss her alot <333..was routing routing routing around the whole food court..
after eating go NTUC..brought like a lot of stuff.
4 cartons of drink and 2 cartons of beer Oo..
okok.. soo... later on is chinatown..
go there.. until ii drop and that was about 1 a.m le..
eat at geylang.. eating the beef ho fun.. hmmm..nice =)
so yeah..back home.. saw chan's blog and hers..
her blog..hmms.. nvm :D
ii'm just over thinking.
must be postive thinking :D
yupps.. mug my end of days.
post after CNY le..
hahaha!!!!..
so a happy advancment to all chinese..
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR =)

2009-01-22T21:47:00.001+08:00

pretty much nothing to said.. cause.. ii'm super bad mood today.. randoming around to the younger shi ting about stuff.. just frustrated.. Don't want to write anything for now..
if she want to make the decision... ii'll cry. seriously.

2009-01-21T20:08:00.002+08:00

ii feel so darn frustrated.. leave me alone will you?
STOP saying you miss me. cause you don't even mean it.
even if you do.. ii don't want to comprehend what you're feeling now.
nor your thinking.. cause.. ii'm so stress up..
Take a chance to understand me.. UNDERSTAND why am ii feeling this now..
ii told you.. ii won't understand you.. cause it's too late to do anything.
ANYTHING.

ii'm feeling so frustrated now...

2009-01-19T20:28:00.002+08:00

why? am ii feeling a sudden sadnnesss in my heart?
it is because ii can't find a person.. who ii can talk to now?
cause ii really need someone to frustrate out my feelings..
didn't want to tell her.. cause don't want to trouble her..
and she isn't replying my message..
Can't find sze ling.. cause she is in band.. and dunno how to find her..
sooo frustrated and irritating right now right at this moment.. feeling that everything is so different so.. difficult for me to even understand.
yet perhaps ii'm the one who couldn't understand myself.
all this sadness make me stop breathing for a moment..
ii wish you were here..
ii wish you were know how ii am feeling now..

2009-01-19T15:47:00.002+08:00

Oo...ii though today they having a maintenance at my building but gues not as ii'm able to come online :D

ii miss my little girl right now D:
<3 her lots too XD
haha..

well before ii write anything just something.
Chan.. we could never be like before..or could we be friends.
cause you have broke it. the one last thing that you have done.. you have broke it..
and you treat it as a joke and joke back at me.
you'll never get my understanding.. not never but not now.. or till ii know..
you called me last night well ii was asleep.. hah. didn't answer cause ii'm siick.
don't try calling.. ii won't be answering .. not course ii don't want answer.
but ii can't.

soo.. lets start my day.. :D
was in school by 8.30..
She message me at 8 a.m.. was happy to see her message :D
she was using her friend handphone but her own number to message.. thanks =)
so we were messaging then we talk a lot la... then she told me she was very tired..
so.. ii send her this sms ..
me: " *tranfer energy* "
she : " *recevived energy* LOL "

ii was at class that time.. almost laugh out really loud la :D
haha.. heng keep my voice down.. XD
then today nothing special loooors... is damm sian ders.
ii already choose the present and trying to save her present for her =)
soo...thats all guys will post tonight :P

Countdown to alicia's birthday : 4 days =)

signed off =)
<3 ramsey

2009-01-18T18:06:00.002+08:00

miss my little girl D:
sad uh she send her phone for servicing zz..
well.. will wait for her phone to be fix then haha..
meanwhile there is always msn :D

oh well just a short post..to tell you guys that ii won't be on tomorrow..
cause starhub is having maintenance over at my place..the whole buliding is out of service D:
sad :(

2009-01-18T08:29:00.003+08:00

before ii post anything here's a short message :D
my dear girl (to you know who :D)
Thanks for being such a positive person.
a somewhat negative person like me... is happy too meet and know you :D
thanks :D

so let's go back to posting :D
as you can see ii keep on using " :D " this hmms.. maybe because someone has been giving positive energy XD... haha..
but didn't really sleep well last night cause was coughing badly..
ii seem happy that Chan is going off..(ii'm not like xin zhai le huo ok? ><)
not like that time.. sad.. and sorrow.. not really having that kind of feeling now.
no bluff. just the truth.
=) ii'm smiling cause ..someone is always bring lots of positive energy too me :D
Love her lots =)
well can't tell you who is she uh? haha :D
going to M'sia later.. to shop? dunno.. see how.. cause my mum want to go in again.. which for me is SIAN de lor. haha ..cause ii don't shop things unless is PSP stuff..
might want to look at some accessories .. :)
soo happy now.. haha..

Sick as per usual. D:
will post later or tomorrow.
today don't think wil go to church since ii going m'sia.. and she is going.

almost forgot :( but yeah still remember
Countdown to alicia BIRTHDAY :D : 5 days :)
BYE GUYS
<3 lots XD

2009-01-17T15:31:00.003+08:00

ii'm back posting.. actually dunno wad to post cause there are some matters that are meant to be confidential :)

soo...lets see..
message alicia in the morning.
promised her to buy her the album.. though she said ii'm crazy to buy for her.. but ya.. buying it for her as a birthday present. :D
today ii then know SHOW shop is actually in Singapore :D which is expensive :(
incase you dunno wad is show shop is a shop that xiaoZhu open himself. He's the boss =)
happened something in the morning which shall be a happy serect between me and someone else :)...
today ii'm smiling.. LAUGHING! XD
and as per always.. ii hate my backstabbing dad..
cause ii was calling alicia..so my dad told my mum ii keep on calling people zz..
ii was like wth? ii help you wash your clothes and hang your clothes even after ii am siick LEI!!!!.. :( zz. don't be bother with him le.. selfish guys anways.. want my mum to go AMK just to get a car --" darn him.

Sarah is so busy today..so.. don't want to bother her le...
so ya.. Missing someone right now:D
in exactly 3 more months ii will be 16.. with lots of work.. BUSY GUY SIA. ><
haha..
bon voyage to CHAN.
go le and come back safely.
renuion dinner on 25th :D
Countdown to alicia birthday :D
6 days

2009-01-16T20:34:00.003+08:00

You'll never care anyway..
ii'm gone for good now...
to you.. ii gave you up =)
no.. there will never be a chance for me to like you again...
cause.. you only care about him.. ii'm nothing.
nothing to you AT ALL!..
and so ii will carry on with my life.. so love him. so be it now.
one sentence now. ii'm disapointed for the last time

So lets continue my life =)
so wad did ii do today?
hmmm... Didn't really..really do much.. but today still was ok..
didn't really sms anyone.. till night.. sms Sarah about some stuff.
then ya... nothing much other then in CF... well well.. ^^
didn't expect it was so much fun.. cause we were doing a lot of actions songs... then the last one was.. dunno wad songs...soo...we created our own moves XD... we were so high!!!... haha.. even though ii loss my voice though =x...shouted a lot during CF cause need to control the sec 1 and 2's... strain my voice a lot even though ii wasn't supposed to do that..
scolded some of the sec's 2.. cause was pissed of when he uses hp during in class.
thanks to kaiyuan that he said something good about listening to the seniors.. cause was quite difficult asking them to shift around.. -_-"..
lose my temper over Anabell.. cause of some matters but ii apologize. and sure you can still joke stuff that ii told you over the phone outside of CF... but when in CF when ii joke ii won't joke stuff that ii said outside.. cause ii treat CF important.. and ii want to separate 2 issues. =).. but end up ii smsing her.. then still can joke with her =).. ii counted how many times she said sorry and thats was 2 XD.. haha.. but the rest was ya ok.. ==".. will be starting the things by next week..
saw the doctor.. He advice me to see the ENT specialist if ii really can't recover from my soat throat.. He has given me the strongest antibiotics...so will see how in 5 days time.. pehaps it might be a relapsed. MIGHT only. so.. still not so worry =).. thats all haha

2009-01-12T21:29:00.001+08:00

freak! freak FREAK!!!!!!!..

why am ii so noo mood now?
why am ii feeling this way NOW!
WHY!..
is it because ii still love you?
or is it because ii so hate you now!?
why is my mind so swirling up!
ii wish you will just made up your mind at sometimes..
that day.. ain't a joke for me..
but you said it was a joke..fine.
ii'm just feeling so damn freak up!
STUPID!!!!
well.. it doesn't matter anyway..
so headache stupid.

2009-01-11T10:53:00.002+08:00

lalala... after so many people asking me to update, actually one and that is dad XD.. ii decided to update a litt about yesterday CCA recuitment and stuff.. was out in the morning and reach school at 8.. when to set up the stuff.. piano and helping out..quite heavy but at least ii got use to carry stuff at FGS 12 stools lols train me until like Oo.. thanks to wai cheong that we are able to use the keyboard cause without him ii don't think ii know any IT stuff XD.. but end up cannot use the piano BURN UP OMG. XD.. but yeah. it almost lead to a castrophe. hmms.. recuitment was good ^^ 21 plus student ii think just like last year when mdn foon brought people in.. this new teacher also brought NEW people in. Oo... which was a good thing haha.. ^^

when off around 12.20p.m and when for lunch with my dad and mum.
quarrel with my mum again.. which really leave me no choice but to quarrel with her..
said ii've change and stuff.. ii'm rebelling lots of stuff.. ask me stop studies.. but ii shoot her back this. you're not even the one revising with me. so shut up :) all she do is to nag at there and here and seriously she doesn't even teach wad ii'm studying anymore.. ii do my homework myself. dun understand just find my teacher the next day after school.. my results. doesn't even depend on her. ii work hard. thought that ii failed my subjects ii still feel proud. at least ii try my best. and this year ii not trying but ii'm sure ii can make it to my sec 5!. just stop bothering into my life and nagging like some drepression woman or some girls that ii know who changes EASILY not like dad le hor :D .. well no comments after that haha :P

eaten lunch and ii'm back home changing to my clothes black shirt and jeans as a normal procedure to work over at FGS sound..the whole event was fun!.. especially the english dharma club with their skids.. is nice and FUNNY ! haha..everything ended nicely and ii got a new book wee... ^^ buts as per always ii going to crack my brain to read it. ^^
well..after that when to m'sia and saw the new custom.. was nice. eat porridge and was back home at 1 a.m sleep le! wee..

wad you said that day. is hurting. and afterall ii realised how "important" ii am to you thanks for slapping such a nice check for me. won't even ask you anything now.

2009-01-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

well...ii'm here blogging.. dunno actually wad to type..but soon ii will upload my hokkiado trip journal since ii wanted to write it down but seem like ii don't have the time. so yeah... just feeling.. abit dramatic now.. dunno wad to said willpost tomorrow :D

2008-12-22T10:07:00.002+08:00

well...ii'm back from japan guys. and no ii won't post everything now.. will post it when ii have the time to do it.. haha. ^^.. ok just some random poem that ii wrote to someone recently.. hmms.. a friend.. good friend^^..

sooo..yeah. its goes like this...

Thank you for bringing laughter and joy as no one has ever bring..
you have bring my life to my usual self.. a smile on my face..
making you laugh my friend.. become sooo..fun in it
thank to Cindy that we meet.
may friends we last haha... XD

perhaps is not a poem haha.

soo...yeah.. we're just friends..
and FYI she Sarah ^^.. lols

if you think that ii gonna play around.. so be it.
after all.. you have your happiness then stop Budd into my life.
we're merely friends..and you're just giving advice that will never work.
cause look.. at your own decision and your own self. before saying wad you said to me.
no ii'm not wad like you think.. cause.. you never understand me as well.
wad ii said.. yesterday was just merely a spoke of angryness. yet.. you just go into it.. you going out with him today have fun ^^
hope you accept him. yups. ii guess ii have lots of wishes that day... hope all those wish.. that ii make come true.. greedy me haha..

2008-12-12T10:19:00.008+08:00

LOL...ok yesterday was till the extremes fun eh XD..but yeah at least ii create some fun in this boring ktv day to celebrate JASMINE JIE's(or yuki jie) de birthday!.. hahas..but was fun la..ii sing a lot of songs.. like chong dong.. erm..and alot also the reason that ii remember chong dong cause this song is my fav ^^.. and other then that there was bu xiang ge da ren.. thats nice also.. hahas... well post later guys ^^

well..time for some emo part hahas..well not la..
seriously ii dunno wads wrong with saying good luck to you.
ii'm just saying good luck to you not being scaratics and stuff.
could you just understand? haha.. well. can see that you're happy with him
and seriously.. ii'm happy for you.. you could find another one ^^..
congrats and all the best

5.15p.m
well... ii'm back posting now seriously.. ii'm... so excited the trip on sunday.. yet ii am seriously missing some people now.. hmms like ya ting sarah, marilyn jie er.. kk and ezekiel they all... well..must remember to buy something for them..

now ii'm here blogging... doing stuff and randoming to people haha
and yesterday was fun..so now ii going to elaborate abit more about yesterday.
yesterday was thinking whether to go or not cause my mum said go at your own risk
soo yeah...ii still decided to go after all ii love singing thought that my singing suck >< haha.. we were wanting to decide to go ang mo kio but end up going to civic centre.... cause it's much more cheapr than kbox...so when we go in ii singing the first song that is chong dong weee.. love that song hahas...then we were like singing and talking... then ii sing alot of couple song.. like wu ding, ai de zu xuan lu, and stuff la... hahas.. we sing quite alot..and ii also sing bu xiang ge da ren... xiao chou yu alot la.. all very nice songs.. hahas.. then Wendy brought some stuff from taiwan, they all don't want to eat then ii suggest play paper stone to see who eat...hahas.. so end up.. ii straight win.. no it to get anything haha.. ii was quite happy ccause ii eat until ii scare already... they took some pictures haha... one of them is me and marilyn jie sing couple song...haha!... damn funny lors.. hahas... well after that gone to marsiling when to find henry saw racheal and ii ate over there... hahas.. then wendy give the whole box of mua chi to henry.. since all of us don't want it... haha..then when back homeafter that... sleep quite late as usual...cause ii was chatting with her.. not chan but someone else.. pplay a prank on sze ling :P sorry girl haha XD..it was just meant a joke haha...
kkz guys quite long le right?..will post after ii come back!

Countdown to Japan trip : 2 days
list of things to buy for japan:
anything for elgin brother $20 budget
jieyun baise lian ren plus anything that ii buy for elgin $20 budget also
FANGlaopa: sourviers? lols :P
erm..and who else? uhs!
YaTing: haha buy one thing from everywhere Oo.

oh welll...need anything tag me!
hahas

ii'm worrry.

2008-12-09T09:02:00.003+08:00

ii'm worry for her.. stupid that it may seems. ii'm worry.. she off to malaysia on friday.. haven't heard anything and also.. nothing.. ii'm worry as a friend.. plus the landslide in KL.. hopefully she didn't stay at KL ..hopefully she is somewhere else..

life is so full of surprises uhs? when you think you don't worry about that person...you worry her the most.. ii wish she will be back safely now. ii keep on seeing her blog.. hopefully she could update her blog over there LOL!... but anyways.. yeah.. nothing to said much la.. hahas..

saw charmaine! omg.. hahah.. become more chio le wors.. but we saw each other at a funeral .. ii was helping out and she was going there to visit.. hahah.. well.. there is nothing else to said lers....

why do you always call at the wrong time?..

she saves thank God.

2008-12-06T08:50:00.004+08:00

sooo...lets see wad to post about today... hmms.. maybe too late to said this.. but bon boyage to ChanSt and wendy..1 M'sia and taiwan respectively... oh well.. good luck to them.. saw chan blog just now.. hmms..it do bring back lot of memories.. about our past.. as steads.. well.. it's just memories ii will hold tightly.. ii remember when we barely meet for days we steaded... the first week.. we stead she cry in the phone cause of wad ii said... there is just some of the memories.. infact yesterday she called. dunno why though.. ii was busy helping my dad.. but took the time to go answer her call and listein... did realised something different about her voice.. but was heck care..and yeah.. after that sms her.. asking her if she's ok and stuff.. but guess by the looks of her blog she doesn't look ok though.. oh well..she gone now.. so can't do anything. ii wish her good luck in the future with a new guy ii heard she meet ^^.. ii guess they keep on crying agan uh? lols...

oh well.. yesterday.. was tired the luhs.. ><><....won't happened again.. stupid la..

oh well.. going to people park later to paid the money for the trip..then change the currency wee.... okok.. soo see ya monday!

Countdown to Japan:8 days.
list of gifts : elgin: $2o small snack stuff.
jie yun: bai se lian ren and wadeva ii buy for elgin?
yating: hmms.. anything for her
kz guys off/=

2008-12-05T09:28:00.002+08:00

yeah..ii'm back from posting cost got time now to blog so here ii am blogging to talk to you guys about my post... weeee... so wad happened this few days.. quite nothing other the work and work uhs?.. soo yeah.. might be going out later.. well there is nothing to post wad haha...can't said much for now.. see you guys later

well...ii guess will be going out later.. to buy her something..as a gift.. hahas..

2008-11-29T11:07:00.002+08:00

lol.... well ii'm back posting guys HII!!! Miss me guys? lols ><.. okok lets see.. going to church later on.. hmms.. so long never go to church after all i'm busy ya's?..and let's see... wad els..helping in walkathon in sunday's event.. yesterday someone told me she had a crush.. STRANGE that ii can still remember that uhs.. but forgot who liaos LOL. sad though never tell me who is it :( oh well shadn't force then hahas...erm rights. ok. will post when i'm back at home slacking like no others since ii busy on monday onwards.. will post after ii finish my job at the ACJC that side.. is near.. ^^ kkz. guys BYEEEE~

tag reply. and done

2008-11-25T14:15:00.002+08:00

well well...just wanted to add this point.. hopefully really can make it

ii'm going to get strong haha.. hopefully

to prepared myself.. into going...
Missionary field.. heh..

ii'm serious and yet positive.. going to work hard. study hard also hahas..
so watching my diet now.. won't go back into wad ii was... can save quite a lot of money uhs? hahas.

10 years down the road.. ii see myself in another country helping out.. =)
spreading the gospel woow.. hahas.

so now ii must be strong in bible studies and my physical skill =)

2008-11-25T09:53:00.003+08:00

oh....well.. i'm back posting..but the next time ii post will be monday. heh.. so lets see wad i want to blog today.. oh well.. let's blog about what happened yesterday. yesterday was :) .. hahas.. afternoon was talking to Uncle Oilver erm.. was talking about choosing a partner or simply put a spouse hahas... well. because ii was asking him this question :" how do you know God tell us that this person is my spouse"... so he ask me to list some of the characters.

so this is wad ii list...

ii guess love kids?
no it to know how to cook cause ii can cook XD (ii guess) lols

hmms...
and..

willing to go to the field.. with me?
cause ii seriously think of going to the field for quite long
walking with God faithfully
etc etc... which ii won't tell you guys in details uhs XD

soo.. yeah.. after that he ask me to read 1 tim 6:6-8 which saids something about a wife? hahas..
then ya luhs... he share with me the story and was about he choosing his wife.. ^^
after we talk about Jonathan and dominic heh.. the next "me" who is going to take charge of the audio when ii leave next year ^^ and we talk about alan also.. chao feng and etc people.. will pray for alan to accept christ soon heh.. and chao feng. hope doesn't get tempted lars =)

so yeah... BYE GUYS. see you in 6 days time. hopefully ^^

a reply to you : No comments :) cause ii said. no feelings no hurt and no nothing.

a day's work. ^^

2008-11-24T10:43:00.003+08:00

LOL...finally i'm back using the comp.. been busy for the past 2 das not busy lars. but can't touch the comp at all... hmms.. wil post some interesting stuff over here.. ^^

lols.. soo the first interesting thing was about talking future.. so you guys must thing wad so interesting about it... hahas..quite interesting ii said.. ii remenber last tuesday ii was talking to sze ling.. about me going to missionary trips.. then suddenly talk about IF we get marry and stuff... didn't know we had a lot of common goals Lols...as in where should our honeymoon trip be etc etc.. LOL..it's just some dreams ><.. and yet ii still want to go for missionary trips perhaps. ^^

soo...the next one is sunday!.. lols. was especiallly happy that day!.. my suggestion got approved by YAD~ wooots soo..now helping out to organised a basketball tornament wah. XD.. workloads plenty eh?
hmms... don't think ii will be going back to church so easily.. but since ii always busy on sunday..maybe thinking of switching it to sat more convience and infact.. more better cooler! haha. and ii saw a wedding going on in the temple... wow...soo.. nice so interesting eh? ii think a wedding is a scared thing.. is not just any procedures.. but for the man "she going to spend her life with me"and the bride also... wish them eternal bliss. ^^

so yeah thats sums up everything of my few days ^^

to you know: seriously if i'm jealous ii won't be giving you blessing, just like sze ling in the past lol.. she got a stead after we broke like 2 weeks. and seriously.. till now we still are good friends.. ii just trying to be a close friend to you. but yet you said why should we be close. soo.. you said this words.. no it doesn't give me hurt. not hate..but nothing. because.. ii will just change my attidue to you. mark wad you said. and serious ii will also remember wad you said that night. cause that night though that ii keep on saying your stead. for no apparent reason. you just blast of me with a word "fuck" last night well ii was in a funeral. ha. it's your aittidue. ^^ ii might sound very highly of myself. but i'm not.

kkz. thats all guys ^^

2008-11-19T19:38:00.001+08:00

well...ii'm back posting hungry D: ... nothing to eat.. but will find something to eat later ^^
oh and anyways..i was online finding some inspiration when ii saw this poem.. but oh well... i can't seem to fnd the poem.. too bad for you guys to see uhs :P..oh well...time to cook something to eat heh ^^ bye guys ..

2008-11-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

well...ii'm back from camp and seriously ii want to go for another camp somewhere near dec. heh... to the nav teens camp.. ii think it will be fun there :] seriously. ii love this camp.. the overall camp theme was dark to light.. hmms.. first day lesson was by Uncle oliver which teaches us about wad is darkness all about love it because its always full of interaction with the juniors^^.. the 2nd day we have some games in the afternoon...before that ii had a lesson. but ii wasn't there because was talking to nixion about the future candidates. and ii won't mention anyone here...then after the lesson because ii was one of the leaders ii was supposed to lead one of the groups reflections..though that ii didn't hear anything but ii pray and it work out find praise God~ hahas... but anways...that day games one part was water bombing.. ...today played true and dare.. one of them ask me who ii love. yet my one and only answer was you.. love? am ii really loving you? If ii love you... why do ii still hurt you. maybe because ii'm really stupid. heh...at least ii know bang is there. ii'm so envy bang in a way.. at least he can give you the comfort needed. not me. Good luck..at least you found someone better.. greater...lover..ii wish you all de best. ii will begin disappearing?

2008-11-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

It's been long since ii last blog...took this time to blog about things and get use to this keyboard which is extremely difficult for me to use it... work about three days for the youth camp will talk about it about ii get back fom CF camp for now...ii going to bathe..see ya guys in another few

ii guess you have really given up...my bad.. but ii won't be here on like ii said too you...ii going to give you a early present no more then that. and perhaps ii will disapear. and telling you bye forever. seriously ii dunno how to face you. oh welll....nothing could change the fact. seriously ii still love you, heh.....

2008-11-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

phew.....its been a long time since ii last blog... and this blog as ii said has become stagnant >< well... nothing to blog much.. will post some major.. ones...

hmms...first up is semi high tech u.. LOL... meet a lot of people there.. meet biing li jie daniel rady and wen yin... first day.. and make a commotion over at there.. =x.. lols... but was fun though.. ii remember that day.. i first came to know li jie...we would te 2nd batch to go up to the clean room.. and yet yar.. haha..we were learning about the clean room procedures to wad to wear first.. in the end.. ii was carrying him ZZZ... was fun...but tired.. heh..that was then my first new friend.. next day.. was at singapore poly.. came to know daniel wow.. can't believe he is sec 2 sia.. LOL... but ii came to know more about myself.. i'm realistic?*Lols but ii got 3* came to know ru yi. Oo.... which happenly ii dunno wad to said too her.. Oo... and meet soo cheng.. hahas... during my day over there ii meet Dr gupta which futhur let me know more about wad ii could do in the future..wow... and we even played human caculator. Oo....lols..

and there was the 3rd and final day! We was at applied material.. at changi.. fun.. ii had an mock interview and got full marks!... seriously dunno how ii get it.. but a lot of them have doubts that ii have meet a lenient teacher.. but ok la..heh.. soo when graduation surprised was ii won something... ii won a schoolarship $200 for studying in poly or uni.. in enginnering. wow... that was a shock heh....and yeah thats was all sum's about it...

next important event was the Nick guy!....at my church!...
wow seriously..He is an amazing speaker.. i'm now more serious about going back to church!... heh... love his speaking.. and quoting of the Bible.. and how God has help him..

this sum's up everything.. this sat getting my new comp.. and i'm finally..changing comp! woots happy me ><

going to pastor kong service this sunday!

next monday going to see the choir performances.. sure going to be nice.. heh..

well..this sums up my future events!....yups..

BYe guys..~

2008-10-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

lols.. im back posting.. but i'm posting rot stuff... today got some..ramdom inspiration thoughs for someone ^^.. hahas.. won't said that person name XD

How much time's have ii dream about you..
it become countless as ii have dreams about missing you every night...
Everyday ii just want to tell you ii love you.. and ii miss you. 6 words 2 meanings...
ii love you really...
though that we always quarrel..
but ii will still love you ^^

hahas.... post next time byeeesss....XD

2008-10-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

yeah back to blog today...but sad news is... ii going to close down this blog.. or should ii said ii makin it a stagnant blog. ><..perharps ii find no news blogging instead.. ii will be trying to keep a diary o.o ...suddenly think that blogging is no use at all o.o hahas.. but anyways today might be my last post of the whole thing or till ii feel like blogging again...
today when to FGS to help again wee... today was much more better and relax. ><

hahas...when back and sleep...was tired ii guess... a bit headache.. Lols.
heh...sooo yeah..woke up and im blogging now. o.O

Lols. but anyways this few days been having the samedream wooo... hahas..and that is going to some missionary trip.. ii guess ii'm going to fullfilled it after my NS.. since ii know that my mum and dad can earn their own money thus ii think after ii finish my NS ii maybe thinking of going.. hahas.. yeah luhs.. but its carefree anyway.. sooo.. yeah...
ii thinking of been a carefree person.. ^^

perharps you have really given up... who knows.. yet ii couldn't said anything.. will you even read my blog and see my post? ii guess not..

2008-10-17T18:36:00.001+08:00

yeah today indid ii sure have fun.. but woke up late.. ><.. heh today when to T-juntion, with nic brothers and jiaming woot was sure fun there had bible study first... then we were starting to play game sooo first ii play with benson with the basketball. Lols go owned by me =x and yet speaking so guai lan zz.. hate it. soooo after that when for lunch and was back at T-juntion jiaming and nicolahs got to go.. soo left me and nixion and uncle oli then we play snooker.. soo we were saying the snooker table was smalland we decided to go safra someday ^^ .... after we play a game call blockers o.o was fun heh ....sooo yeah luhs.. play half way realised was so late sn decided to go off with nixion then after that... ii go hom with nixion when we were at doby ghaut we since the train was so full we decided to take to the end of the line then turn one round and go off.. hahaha...soooo yeah... got back home now to and i'm blogging now ^^ heh... called sze ling to told her that ii might not have enough money to buy. z... and told her ii just go back home.. but the conversation was funnny ><

sze ling: sooo where you go?
me: outside luhs
sze ling: actually you no it telll me.. i'm not your girlfriend.
me: Lol. ii don't mind you asking.

so yeah hahas.. ><
blog later

yet you cancel the lines.. soo wad does that mean then? ii would never know.
this few days perharps ii really miss you.. but so wad..? you must be hating the guts out of me now..
and yet ii know ii couldn't said anything

2008-10-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

weee..... tomorrow ii will be having no school and will be going out to meet Uncle Oil and others, nixion nic and of course JIAMING o.o hehe... well having bible study tomorrow will be going to T juntion ^^.. heh...

ii duno whether you're missing me.. a not.. but ii duno.. how to said.. yet no sorry can mend up.
but since you hate it sooo much.. nvm.. heh

post tomorrow again then. bye

2008-10-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

Lols...i'm back posting really..duno wad to post but utterly disapointed with someone, just don't want to talk about it.. but anyways.. today watch painted skin with the others.. quite bored la ><... because the behind people keep on giving spoilers, spoiled my damm mood.. now.. a bit sick now post later..

2008-10-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

won't post much today because super tired... well... just one simple sentence today..

today was the worst day ii ever had other then meeting her ^^

2008-10-11T10:14:00.001+08:00

i'm here to post again heh ^^... well yesterday didn't post because was having some problems at home.. will try to post back tomorrow again Lols. if ii can be back home early to post because tomorrow going to church sunday morning going to help out at fo tang. >< .. yeah luhs.. but yesterday was like zz.. because ii was like.. very sian.. dunno why..but ii have a sense that my physic is going to failed me ><.. anyways Benson and the others intending to watch the painting skin and perharps me and soon will go down to suntec to do his asiasoft password bahs. because ii heard his IC was being use by another person soo yeah. better go down and settle it then heh ^^..yesterday talk to "da mang ren" lols Cindy. hahas.. soo busy la she.. morning afternoon go bugis at night still got astro class.. hmms.. soo good uhs.. well.. today ii might buy a new bag.. hahas.. soo yeah. Bye guys. see ya

Ramsey~

yet through that day's scolding and yesterday night talking ii realised how am ii as a friend to you.
ii will never ask or said anything about me to your heart..
to whoever you know ^^ well not (ChanSt don't think too much =x)

2008-10-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

2008-10-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

Shall start off with a quiz today.

Tagged by ChanST

1. Your relationship with him/her?
errr.....its complicated

2. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
Super nice
changes mood easily =x
evil XD
joker...
a nice heart =)

3. The most memorable thing he/she had done to you.
Once she said she going home, but end up coming to woodlands to eat mee soto ^^

4. The most memorable things he/she has said to you.
Idotic moronic you =x

5. What kind of girl/boy he/she like?
MEEEEE =x

6. If he/she become your lover you will?
accept it? =x

7. If he/she becomes your lover the thing he/she can he/she has to improve on is?
Nothing accept her the way she is ^^

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
kill my self

9. If he/she becomes your enemy the reason will be?
No idea. x.x

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
keep her =x

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
No comment x=

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
crazy person

13. The characters you love about yourself are.
Nothing XD

14. On the contrary, the reasons you hate yourself are?
sensitive

15. The ideal person you want to be is?
Her and only her =x

16. For people that care; like you, say something to them
love her back?

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people:
1. CHanST
2. Candy ii guess =x
3. Jia hui
4. siangqin?
5. yuki jie a.k.a jasmine
6. Henry
7. Wendy
8. No one =x
10. No idea
9. No clue

18. Who is 6 having relationship with?
a friend

19. Is 9 a male or female?
ii have no clue

20. If 7 & 8 are together will it be a good thing?
there is no one there... HELLO =x

22. What is 2 studying about?
errrr...no comments =x

23. When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
yesterday

24. What kind of band music does 8 likes?
DUno

25. Does 1 have any siblings?
Yes one older sister

26. Will you woo 3?
Can consider. LOL!

27. How about 7?
Thought of it once..Now ii don't even think of it

28. Is 4 single
HELL yess

29. What is the surname of 5?
HO! HO~!

Whats the hobby of 4?
Reading, blogging.

1. Does 5 & 9 gets along well?
They do not know each other. o.o

32. Where is 2 studying at?
ii forgot

33. Talk something casually about 1?
She is a girl that you couldn't mess with

34. Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
No one is there.. ii REPEAT

35. Where does 9 lives?
ahem...repeat. that slot is EEEEEMMMMPTY

36. What colour does 4 likes?
PINK. because is is a pig =x

37. Are 5 & 1 best friends?
Duno

38. Does 7 likes 2?
Lols. not possible they dont even know each other

39. How did you get to know 2?
know her by chan

40. Does 1 have any pets?
No

41. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
cant be

42. Is 10 tall?
Not there =x

2008-10-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

Well... from today onwards ii going to post everyday.. after making a promised although lazy but must blog.. todayii rest at home because no paper ^^.. ii put 3 alarms to wake me up, first is my watch then is my alarm clock then is my handphone to just remind myself to call her at 5 thought that ii call her at 5.30>< sooo..today ii had no paper and ii rest at home lol... today was soo unlucky..got scolded by 3 people.. first was by baka.. got scolded because ii wakeup her...then after that was by sze ling dunno why but ii sort of got scolded by her.. bah.. then sian luh.. soo call
siang qin then like got scolded again.. because ii call her old number.. soo chatted abit and decided to sms... when ii sms her.. ii told her what happened today... then this make realised that girls are a book that you can't read.. you could never know wad her feeling will be the next minute she could just change and yet a guy to girls is like a open book a book that they have no problem to read..

after that Siangqin just like make me feel worst la... by labeling guys "cheaters and "flirt" well..sort of like got my mood in a worser mood la.. soo yeah stop sms her.. She can't label all guys cheaters mahs.. zz. soo yeah

Tomorrow is physic paper my 2nd last paper and ii will be over...free from exams.. ii will update often now... because ii make a promised to baka ^^ Good luck to me for physic paper.. Bye now see ya tomorrow~

Ramsey
yet stan dad ii really couldn't understand me and fang dad are just really close friend a friend who ii could always confide to a friend who ii could talk my heart too.. because her comments meant somethig at some point of time, sometimes her words really get into my head.. and make me remember her comments is comments that sometimes ii won't forget. soo stan dad let me clarify ii contact fang dad often and talk to her a lot.. because ii trust her but if you want to misunderstand as ii said to fang dad ii don't mind.

2008-10-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

Saw..a video just now.. and makes me wonder.. will ii be like that guy in the video.. Who break up with the girl and help her always by appearing online and talking to her? yet that guy was on the verge of dying.. but make me wonder at some point of time could ii be able to help her.? perhaps ii could by listening as ii have always did.. anyways today maths paper was still ok.. ii know most of the question yet question 9 was a bother ii still until now duno how to solved angles guess ii am weak on those and the angle properties was a bother Lols. can't understand how to do... anyway ii gave lionel the money.. soo hopefully... will get my things by thursday? heh... sian heh well.. thats all my bored life.

2008-10-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

Perhaps/maybe ii really don't understand, but ii did try.. ii did try to eat a humble pie to talk to you.. ii always try to not to make you so angry.. but have you ever think of me? you always wanted your way. and wad shall ii said? you and my mum is just like the same character. stubborn. and truly yoou guys just wanted and think your way.. ii will never said anything about it. ii couldn't care anymore. you guys. just want to think your way so be it. you guys want to be stubborn so be it. ii will never said you. ii will never shed a tears for you. never. since you said its change then so be it.. you think wad you want. since you said ii never ever taken a humble pie to talk to you.. fine by all means said it, ii will never concern anymore. since you said that ii care less about this relationship. fine. ii shall care no less no more. then wad ii should. since you said we leave in different life styles fine by all means. ii won't stop you. go ahead. heh.

bye. will post back later.

2008-10-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

Preharps... ii really don't want to care anymore. why should ii? ii did care.. did you ever notice? ii wasn't jealous about them. but do you care? have you ever think? ii guess not... since you said i'm jealous then so be it.. why should ii cough up some.. stupid explaination to tell you? you couldn't/won't care at all.. ii only said.. they could give you wad ii couldn't does that really consider jealously? maybe preharps and yet.. ii won't understand. ii never will be like bang. ^^ ii think bang.. always help you a lot. how about me.? nothing. not even a single bit did ii help. sure sure fine. if you said i'm jealous. i'm ok. maybe... preharps we will really change our relationship wise.. that is wad you want uhs? fine then ii shall never ask :) i'm getting to my heck care attidue. why should ii care?.. ii shouldn't. ii will never shed a tear , cry for anything... it will never drop. again. just like yesterday when my mum lost $500. ii couldn't even be bother with it. so why should ii care..? ii will never comment you guys again. ii will just be myself. heck care. colded. you guys. never understand. you guys. always think wad you said is right.. the only one who cares? ii guess only God will know. ii ill not care. ever. never. well..
Bye.

this blog.. will be abit dead. LOL.
my life.. is back to his normal :)

2008-09-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

yo, i'm back posting today. ii guess... today was lols. sian luhs XD. hahas.. but at least got a ride back home by my dad.. and ii soo needed that hahas.. yups came home and play combat arms. Lols getting bored of it. =x it's darn simple to play la =x. but anyways after hearing wad dominic koh said about me hmms.. well.. wad could ii said those 2 kids ming hong and Jonathan. they can't see my blog and they don't have the privellage too =) lols. immature brats. that all ii could said, well ii could let them said all their one. because they have already sin. by saying behind people back. wad great people are they.? ha.. so noo comment about those 2 kids. afterall kids are still kids. and will they grow up.? haha. ii won't be there to see them grow. but ii do have high expect for the other sec 1.. harrison dominic and the others. hmms. quite good.. ii could said especially harrison who wanted to learn guitar. well good luck on learning if you're keen to learn ^^ kkz. guys. got to go now. hahas =)... see ya~

ramsey

2008-09-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. today was fun.. overall lars.. Lols. after school when to dingo house... meet with benson who suddenly want to go ding house with me.. heh. soo when there.. and saw pearlyn and ding.. wee... when to his house. and he mix some drinks for us... hmms.. gave me his geog notes and yeah thanks ding. soo there we was talking and not revising XD.. ii talk to din about someone.. and seriously.. sometimes.. ii couldn't really take it.. ii'm not going to refer to anyone or anything.. you ask me ii will also said ii duno X= it's a total serect between me and ding.. lols. but he said ii look like a middle age man talking. YEAH RIGHT =x.. lols.. but ii guess.. there is somethings ii need to tolerate. drink 6 cups of that drink which was 7-up plus vodka raspberrie.. Ding said ii was drunk right.. how coul ii be drunk and playing chess with you uhs? hahas... but sure.. tomorrow is going to be another day. ii going to start my final revising. with social and geog and a whole lot of subject. we.. 2 more days. to exams. sian. haha. SOooo.. BYE GUYS~

Ramsey~

2008-09-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

Well...i'm here to blog and today... hmms... Suddenly ii want to blog about dreams..

when ii was small... ii always think of being a magician after seeing a magician perform at my kidergarden during my early age time... well..that soon goes away and ii duno why.. hahas

when ii was older at the age of 12.. my dream.. was nothing.. hahas...

after when ii was sec 1.. after seeing the show.. ii was thinking of going to travel out at the sea.. being a marine engineer. Lols.. soon after forgot the thinking and well..now ii'm here thinking of going for hotel management to work in a hotel... But there was once ii ever wonder.. to just go around the world.. and work.. Duno why ii got that dream.. but yeah... that was once wad ii think..off.. and truly.. ii thinking of realising it.. preharps it was because of my uncle that make me think of realising a dream like seeems impossible.. but yeah.. thanks uncle ^^ life is short... truly ii agree.. my uncle.. who seem.. he will be there forever.. as leave this place.. sadly but true... today just visited him at the temple over FGS.. truly ii think he is in a much better place now... and he make me realised that ii should go achieve my dream.. and who knows? preharps ii just might stay in one of the country and never be back.. preharps.. i'm thinking too far.. aheah.. but seeing my dad and mum.. a marriage seems scary. and ii guess..a person like me won't have a person to like me uhs? hahas.. thus staying single.. its better or should ii said.. ii have no choice? hahas! but yeah.. after my poly.. after ii earn some money...ii will travel.. while traveling working.. heh.. well... thats all forks!.

hope you like my short passage of the day~ heh

Ramsey
its never be the same again?

2008-09-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

hahas... Aother day.. another day of stress? hahas.. ii guess i'm getting use of coping stress or finding a way to destress.. too huhs? ii guess im not the one who is going to destress by people.. Since she want me to find a new person ii shall then? ii duno.. God knows. ii shall let God plan my destiny.. as he always did.. ii going back to church again.. i'm sure going to stay..this time.. no matter my wad my mum saids? ii will go ahead ler.. ii guess God is the one who truly knows me. uhs? hahas.. ii shall pray for her exams.. too ^^.. end of year.. i'm still going to ubin to visit that uncle and to visit the places that ii want to visit with her.. will be with the others.. a whole group sure will be fun. alone yet happy... ii shall not force nor go by anything.. time will pass.. and she will be a good memory for me.. a real good one..

this few days.. seem to be facing a lot of stress like that.. but ii guess ii have found a way to de-stress uh? hahas..i'm free and i'm free to do anything.. ii won't ever have to listein to anyone not you.. not my mum.. not anyone.. ii don't owe you guys anything.. never again.. ^^ well.. tomorrow CF and ii'm waiting for jia ming to finish.. the powerpoint.

Bye guys~
ii promised to forget you since you want me to soo sickening to forget you.. don't worry. ii be find without you..life may seems boring.. but at least its much more better. ii guess.. this is my goodbye post to you ^^

2008-09-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

Things is not going well for me...in fact everything is failing me.. my tears are dry..soo dry now that... ii can't even shed a tear for wad you have said yesterday.. ii guess ii need a break.. from life.. ii guess.. everything is just breaking away from me.. and nothing.. seem to be in a smooth way..she said is was tempo.. but who knows? that she might find a new guy.. along the way.. ii don't know.. and i'm just sad.. yet no tears could come out of my eye.. ii guess.. my eyes.. is really dry up.. i'm going to study hard.. for my exams.. extra hard may anything un happy will soon pass.. heart is total shatter.. welll 2 1/2 weeks more to exams.. not fully prepared but i'm starting my last run already.. ii will go for the course ii wanted and thats that.. bye guys.. post later bahs

ramsey.

2008-09-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

well... well.. im here to tag today.. going through a hard time.. downloading my stuff again after a OS failure.. stupid. but nevermind ii guess ii be changing CPU soon with a bett preformances.. hopefully this problems won't come back to me.. currently installing msn and stuff so that can chat with you guys again.. i'm done with the normal stuff.. but still ii can't get back my psp games. DAM it >< haiiz.. anyway.. i'm still frustrated. z. kkz. post back laters hahas

2008-09-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... i'm here to blog again today is all about "rantings" lawls..

ii just want to said.. ii HATE my mum, couldn't she just know.. ii try my best.. and ii really do..
couldn't you not look down on me.. and despised me? am ii really that bad in your eyes? true ii pierce my ears. so? is there a problem with that? true that ii have a stead? so... is there a prblem with that? no? yes? you said ii don't study.. but DO you follow me 24 hours a day and see me not studying? what for ii study at home for act? ii don't act.. ii don't like studying at home no use forcing me.. ii rather study at school listeining to teachers.. i'm not a study type.. you know me? why can't understand your own son? i'm not like cousin.. who listein to you. ii talk with you reason. and you simply said that ii talk with no reason and push all out.? you're my mum so what.. ii must listein to every word that you said? i'm not stupid..you can't compare meng to me. He is bad... he talk back to his mum.. but wad about me? ii talk with reason and you simply ignore. so what kind of mum are you? you said.. my results will be a failure and ii can't even survived sec 2.. but ii did.. and ii got progress reward.. you keep on saying that ii go out with girls but why can't ii have a choice? girls can also be normal friend can't you think straightwhy must you think that ii go out with girls for date.? couldn't it be a normal meeting? you! you! everything is you! teach me to be puntual not to waste time...But what did you do? slogging people time. you said my maths is going to failed when ii was in primary school.. but what now? a grade 1! you despised me.. and you look up to my cousin!!!! why can't you support you son to buy a new cpu.. ii just want a new cpu to play games to relax and to do my power point! couldn't you understand!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO you don't! you think ii play ALL DAY!.. but what could ii do? ii don't study at home! understand my character! understand that ii am not like everyone who study at home.. ii only could study in class when the teacher is talking... when ii can concertrate!... DO YOU UNDERSTAND!? no you don't ii talk back when you said me bad.. isn't it right? ii said for wad you said is wrong of me.. and you said.. ii being from bad to worse. who make it? it was you.. you!.. NVM. ii will still proved to you.. what a bragger mum.. such a brag.. brag that you are yabayaba good.. and the TEO's are yabayaba bad. wad a freaking b****

thats is my end of rantings at least ii know...someone is behind me always..to love a baka boy like me uhs =x

my rants.. are just there =x
ramsey

2008-08-31T11:44:00.000+08:00

Today i'm here to blog again after some people said ii lan zhu ask me to blog -_-" if not i'm lazy to blog.. actually I'm plain bored. so here ii am blogging a few days has happened a lot and ii guess.. my result's is not my expectation.. not really.. but at least there is still room for improvement.. ii showed my mum that was she expected my maths will be is wrong in the past, ii had always had very poor results for my maths and english during my primary school days during that time she predicted my maths and english will end up by a failing grade by primary 6 and true enough ii got a D for english and maths.. this year was different, with a help of mrs chong and mdm Ng. my result's improved my english is not a failing grade now.. but there is still room for improvement. my maths from a failing grade in sec 1 till a a grade 1 80 marks.. for common test.. ^^.. although ii failed my combined humanity. hmms but still ii get 9th in class i'm going to improved ii going to stay back after school everyday to study. for my combined science.. ii decided to stay every day for physic and ask teacher for everything that ii duno ii going to do it.. ii going to improved on every subject at least a grade above ii will let you see mum. that my result aren't wad you think. ii am not what you think.. ii am willing to study.. Do you ever see my effort? thought that ii never study at home but ii always try my best to study.. Can't you understand your own son? ii can't self study but rather someone to teach me.. ii must listein then do.. its not that ii don't want study but ii couldn't concertrate with me studying alone. ii guess you don't and you don't even know why ii wanted a new comp. true that those spec's that ii write could let me play alot of games without any lagging issue but ii also need it for power point. ii guess you don't understand. you always think you are right and i'm always in the wrong. ii just wanted a new comp to do my work smoothly and play my game when ii had the time. guess you don't. nvm.

bye world~ anyways. no one reads this blog. hahas =x

when ii was in m'sia.. my mind was on you.. ii guess..you're always on my mind now.. never forgetten nor it can be erase.. you name is on my mind now.. every time min and sec.. hahhas

2008-08-24T08:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah i'm back to post.. Yesterday wasn't home till like 8 and was so lazy to blog and soo..ii decided to blog today... ii guess this few days.. a lot was going through my mind.. well..someone intrude me to ask this question: "Can people really last at this age?" well this was by my teacher when ii told him something.. haha.. but he said things don't last at this age? But ii had different comment uhs... ii guess when we really put in effort and we are true to each other through difficulities couples will suvived when we create surprises things will go through.. a small surprises is to spice up life.. ii duno? but this ii wad ii think only because by giving surprises.. by making a bit of effort to just call the person you love during your exams.. is ok.. well.. this is my overall summary hahas.. ><.. yesterday.. when to tuition then go eat live prawn noodles at a shop near my tuition school then when to Jurong to visit my new little cousin~ She so cute!~.. then Chanst wake up le.. finally and she sleep 12 hours straight. ii guess ii couldn't do that. ><...

After that when to geylang and eat the $10 steamboat quite nice hahas.. when back home waited for her...but end up sleeping..and now posting as usual ii wake up early =x.. ok guys. thats all for now. post later.

ii still feel really sorry.. thought you said that its not my fault and all.. but sorry for not been able to be there when you most needed me..

2008-08-22T18:16:00.001+08:00

Lols... hi guys a new post in a new blog... well ii like this skins once ii saw it.. well.. never ending road... ii guess.. it mean something to me... it mean to me..that ii will have a never ending road with her hahas... hmms.. i'm back from kurimun so anyone miss me? hahas... oks post tomorrow..
see ya later..

During the days in kurimun my misses for you become heavy and ii really miss your voice during that few days.. you were my motivation when ii am climbing up the mountain overall thanks.. hahas